Something to Ponder Over..

I hate myself for caring everything of yours.i like the thing you love. i ignore everything which you dislike. i am sad for your down..i am even fed up when i don get a single reply from you? am i just worth a price of pen in yr heart?? damnnnnnnn...so what if you really just treat me as a friend..but i cant even feel i am a friend for you.. duhh!!!go away from my life..seriously..i am telling myself everything will be end once you step out from my life..it is soon..it is really soon..
i know i will regret for writing this..and i might delete it later but who cares..i just.....FED UP..fed up on every single thing i am doing..fed up of myself for liking you so muchhhh...you know..SPELL ME THE WORD..FUCKING FED UP..

by Peik Shean darling...your post described my feelings today. Depressed. I never request for anything..NEVER. Go fucking find other gals who are way off better for you. Yeah, materialistic types alot out there. wtf. I guess they'd do you good. I'm so freakin fuckin angry today. I've gone cuckoo. wtf. Goin nuts just cause someone treated me like a junk. Damn. Hell yeah I felt like one. Someone calm me down..I'm gonna get high blood pressure.

Rainy Day =)

Love the weather. Makes me wants to nua someone. Swt. Did not notice that the visitor counter doesn't match the new template. Haha. Don't know how to change to 3rd party template tho. It always have this XHTML error. wtf.
The other day I was surfing one Malaysian babe's blog, and the way she blog, i find it cute. Cute in a way that she keep mentioning wtf wtf wtf. LOL I wanted to type it in my blog but some of my friend's parents view my blog. I've been recognized as one of the Rude Clan member. Haha.
This pc sux. It was so slow. Can't even connect to msn and yahoo messenger simultaneously. Either one will be disconnected -.- I bloody love the icons there. Doesn't even work after the IP was changed. Loser.
Can't wait for tonight. Can't wait for Wed or Sat and Sunday.

-the end-

Tagging out of Boredom

Game rules and regulations

Original Version: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it total 20 questions, then tag to 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she had been tag. Whoever did the tag will have blessing from all. You must link to the one who tag you, then spread it to 8 people, let’s the game go on, return the tag to sender is prohibited.

Edited Version: You need not remove or add any personal question…It’s not mandatory to tag 8 people (the number is up to your preferences). Other than that, u may use your own style of tagging the next people…no need tag also can lah!

1. What is your dream during your childhood?
I remembered filling in the word 'lawyer' and 'doctor' under the ambition column in my report card when I was a child. Haha!! Why? I know nothing bout these shits. I just thought that oh my parents encouraged me to, so I just follow.

2. You like rainy day or sunny day? Why?
Lurved the rain loads. Tho it irritates me when my shoes get wet. Rainy day makes me feel lazy, manja manja so that I can cuddle up with him to sleep or just to watch DVD or do something. Sunny day makes my eyes looked like they don't exist =P

3. Which colour you like most?
Currently I like milky blue...reminds me of something

5. Where is the place you wanted to go most? Why?
Back to my home, my own bedroom, with my babies cuddling up to sleep. Or maybe I wanna go eat sushi. Darn long never eat edi *sweats*

6. Which part of you that you hate most?
My legs (height) I'm so short

7. When you encounter a sad moment, what would you do?
I'd cry. I'm too emo. One thing I don't really like bout myself. Ppl see thru me easily. I cry even during watching anime/cartoons.

8. What do you scare to loss the most?
My loved ones. Or the weird feeling when I die, have you ever imagined what it'd be like?

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? Or just keep secret in heart, observing by yourself?
flirt flirt first, then see what he's like, if situation permits, CONFESS lah. Scared what??

10. List out 3 good points of the one who tag you.
Nobody tagged me. I took it from one bloggie..forgotten which haha

11. If you are forced to let go something, what would it be?
I'd like to send away 5kg of my own fat..wait no..5kg i'd have flat boobs..okla 5 will do..=P

12. Till now, what is the moment that you regret most?
Wasting time with my ex for 5 freaking years and I thought he was the one. HAHA!

13. Which type of person you hate most?
Loads..bitches, guys who bitch around bout others, peeps who curse other ppl's mama (have u no respect?), etc etc

14. What is your ambition?
Own a pet shop of my own.

15. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad.
What is this Q?

16. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
To have 5 million dollars =)

17. Christmas is coming, who would you like to celebrate with?
It's over and I don't wanna remember

18. What do you think that is most important in your life?
Rationality

19. At what age do you wish to marry?
28? I'm so old now *sweats*

20. What is a blog means to you?
A virtual space where I can scream my lungs out without anyone interfering.


I just do this out of boredom, so anyone interested just do it. *shrugs*

Craving for Tong Sui

I'm

so

longing

to eat

QueensPark's tong sui (Stalls operation at night pposite Carefour in Cheras) *slurps* The Pork Noodle is very nice too. *Sigh* Hungry hungry. I wanan go on diet!! Yet, yesterday night I shoved one medium sized bowl of rice down my throat, pork balls, soy sauce with sliced pork, ginger steamed chicken, fish, and some vege. Guilty, guilty and guilty.

Oh, btw did you know they have MNG and Esprit concept store there? Can et good bargain sometimes...the time I went they have 40% discount. Time to shower. Tsk this laptop's bluetooth is not working. Can't transfer photos from my phone. *sobs*

Random Pics

While waiting for Heroes to load, found some photos from my Friendster, haha I looked way fatter now. *shrugs*


This photo taken @ Black Canyon, Ipoh Kinta City by a stalker, who sent the pic to me anonmously -.- nah, he's actually a friend who doesnt dare to come and dar jiu fu with me..


Germaine when she first came to me..love ya baby


I love this pic. She looked neat.


My hair @@ and my bro

Kelvin & I, ROFLMAO. FYI, I couldn't fit into this top anymore. Too FATTTTTTTTTT!!!

Hiding my pain, with a smile

i know, i'm a very sensitive gal. u may think i'm those open minded type of
gal on the outer side, i can be crazy, but i can be as quiet when something's
troubling me. i travel deep into my own world wondering, day dreaming,
etc...this morning i felt as if i was a loser, why did i fall for such a
'thing'? damn, now i know what to do. gimme fate guys, hope i can do it. *sigh*
moodless

All of these does not matter to me anymore.

Thursday Blues

I felt so emo today. am feelin emo now still. the inside of me is gonna explode anytime soon. filled up with mixed feeling which I couldn't bring it out with words. maybe I should try meditation. go back to my NDSL. or just indulge myself in sleep, never to wake up. never having to face with choices in my life. with the homosapiens I love. but my babies. come to think of it, it's been two weeks since I see em. I missed em so much. I miss having them beside me when I sleep. cuddling em. seeing both of them perform tricks just to get a taste of the treat that they knew I'd reward them. wagging their tails when seeing me. they knew how to mke my day. with a lil love and care for the lil two monkeys, and what I get in return is two best companion for life. I love u both so muchie. why can't just human do the same I wonder?

There's too much guessing and question marks inside me which I am longing to find out. why can't things just be a lil bit simpler? too much whys. like a story I read from Chicken Soup Series, why hide when you can't love? Why love when you hurt? Simply, means, don't love someone when u can't even reveal yourself. and do not love when u intend to hurt that someone. to cut the story short, this weird man who doesn't reveal much of himself, wanna try dating this gal. but his character just changes weirdly until the girl doesn't know what is on his mind. what can she do? The ending? Get yourself that book and read it - Love and Relationship Series.

Pardon me for being so emo today. Don't know what has got into me. Happy New Year peeps. Happy 2008 to myself