Banana without monkeys

when out of so many friends that you have, but the one that you had your eyes on was him. loadsa question pops out. why him and not the rest? why now, this moment? how? you'd keep askin yourselves millions of question but prolly ended up gettin no answers at all. what if, the particular person is attached or have no interest to develop further from friendship? wait? feel heartbroken and give up? be third party or just lie to yourself that being friends with him is more than sufficient? humans are greedy. they would not be satisfied with something they have, they'd ask for more. what if, there's no respond or answer at all and you were left hanging mid-air? dang. too many what ifs. there's loadsa questions which there's no answer to it. it an be an A answer for me but B to another. i guess it all depends on how you look at it. you may choose to ignore it, forget bout it and moved on, or bury urself into depression and put a full stop to whatever you're doin. still, the world is spinnin and you gotta move on. easier said than done.there's no such thing as 'i can't live without u' thing. easier said than done.

it's rainin. makin my 'sum ching' so 'yuk shuen'. i love the rain. it's a sleepmaker.

Sleepless Night

I was awakened by gastric. Thus, decided to go out hunt for food. What can I get at 4 in the morning othe than McD or instant noodles from 7-11? Ended up I got nothing. I was drivin aimlessly, from Sri Petaling to Puchong, which leads me to Sunway and all the way to BU and back to Sri Petaling...

The bitterness is back. Shitty I'd say. Why doesn't it go away? FML!




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Location:Lebuhraya Shah Alam, Lumpur,Malaysia

What's da BIG deal?

No inspiration to blog lately.

X'mas passed. New year's next. Why is everyone so excited bout it?-.- I missed the chance to go Singapore with Aaron (and to meet her gf hahahaha!) wtf I wanna gooooo *cries* just don't feel like stayin here in KL =( Jam everywhere. Imma stay home with bottles of hoegaarden. Myself and Germaine :P I wish he'd ask me out *dreams*

Was at Brussels yester night. Melissa and I. We were there for less than half hour (cant believe it myself) lol after minutes of ranting and complaining we decided to head to Island Cafe. She wanted Kampai. Met up with spongebob aka Aaron and got my specs back *grins*

What's the big deal of today being the last day of the year and tomorrow being the first day of the decade? Like you'll get wiser, healthier or richer? Crap. Phone running out of batt. Chiao :P


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You ask me how my day was as if it is the same everyday
I say that I'm okay but you really don't know how I feel
Do you think I will be okay?
It is really hard to live in this world
That is why I blame myself for still breathing

What should I do? Even now, I live these painful days because of what you said
Tell me if this is a bad thing to do
Do you live every single day painfully like me I wonder?

I think about you and you might know this.

What should I do?

-.-

Imma shut all the communication channels down.

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Location:Jalan 9/149d,Kuala Lumpur,Malaysia

Ridiculous am I?

I just wished the last person I spoke to before I fall asleep is you.
How I wish that your SMS would be the first thing I see when I'm awake.
I dreamed of you.
I wish you'd care.


Sometimes I just wished I'd never speak to you as your harsh words crushed me deep down. Yet, I'd to stand tough and pretended everything's okay in fear that you'll feel annoyed.

Why do I care so much for you?

This may not mean anythin at all to you. I know.

I'd never hoped for more than just your love.

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Location:Jalan Raja Musa Mahadi,Ipoh,Malaysia

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Yup. Im back to Ipoh and I'm not gonna go back anymore.

Kiddin. The stomach pain is killin me =( depressed depressed. Don't ask why. I went karaoke @ K Box and unbelievably sang only 3 songs. Only! Kay's "hei thip gai", and two other FIR ones. Drowned myself with Heineken and was totally zoned out.





Looked so fat in this top. Geez. I'm growing fatter =( where's mah thinspiration gone? Everyone's gonna hate me for being fat. Gosh I'm so the emo.





Pressie from mah cuzzy. Belated. Haven't met her for a while. Missed the time when we used to hang out together.

Lately, I've not been able to concentrate. Don't know why. Things just doesn't always happen like how we want it to be. Live with it I guess. Nobody's gonna give a damn fcuk when you're dead.


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Location:Jalan Teh Lean Swee,Ipoh,Malaysia