Thursday, April 14, 2011
i woke up, and felt empty inside
we met in the strangest way, and our time together was simple and yet so incredible.
every time you came to visit me, i felt a kind of happiness that i can’t even explain and every time you left i counted down the days until i would see you again. i fell for you after only knowin you for a few days, and after that I just continued to fall.
i was happy that it seemed like nothing could bring me down, but a fear that I knew all too well was creepin up on me, as it had done with all of my past relationships. i was now so afraid of what life would be like without you that I convinced myself that everythin would be easier if I ended our relationship before I began to rely on you too much.
the boys that i date seem dull, and this makes me miss you even more. these boys can’t make me laugh the way you did, the sight of them doesn’t make me feel like the happiest girl in the world. this is how you made me feel every time I saw you.
i loved the simple text messages you would send me every mornin, tellin me how beautiful i was and how much you missed me. i loved the way you smelled like cigarettes, and i loved your smile.
i’m stuck. i will continue to wake up every day feelin empty and i will carry on with my day-to-day life, until maybe, just maybe, you decide to tell me that i’m not alone in this and that you too have felt empty...
at 11:32 AM