Monday, February 21, 2011
You’re weird. First you gave love a chance, loving the wrong person for so long. You gave it all you had and let yourself open without thinking that you’ll ever get hurt and for five long years, you loved with all you had even though you knew that the other heart has fallen apart. Or was I wrong? You kept loving and loving, hoping that the other heart would change. Then the time actually came the time where you got hurt. Not just a short amount of hurt; you were hurt for more than a year. For a whole year you were occasionally broken. You tried talking to the other heart but was given a cold shoulder. But you never give up for a chance to love again. Why would you give love another chance when you have gone through so much bullshit and lies? I am sorry. So so so so so sorry that I put you through so much hurt and pain. That is why I kept you locked up. Locked up from the other heart. It was hard. I was never going to put you through more pain. So when this new guy came in my life, I kept you locked up even though you kept telling me to go for it while my head kept telling me “no” because I wanted to keep you protected. But you kept trying to come out and over power my mind. So after all the things you’ve been through you still wanted to open up to this new guy. He must be something special if you wanted to give love another try just for this one new guy. Then finally, you over-powered my mind. I listened to you rather then my head. I hope that you were right. Things happened so fast that there wasn't space to heal. You wondered yourself whether this what happened was true. I hope your decision will help me turn from that bitter heart broken girl to this happy smiling girl. I wonder how many more months will you need to seriously give love another chance again. He isn't the most perfect guy in the world. There were more doubts rather than perfection. But i can see he's putting effort in this relationship. There's more downs than ups but thank you telling me to go for him. Thank you for taking chances once again. We may not forsee what's gonna happen in the future.. But what i truly believe is never to give up on love. Its not easy to find someone you love. Its even harder to find someone who will love you back in return. I’m happy because even though I put you through so much pain, hurt, tears, bullshit, lies, and torture, you are still willin to give love another chance.
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